People know of secret lovers, but they are maybe not as familiar with secret students. The student unabashedly needs what is offered to be a secret teaching because this student is in deep awe of the teacher’s life work which speaks directly to the student’s soul, so there must be privacy.
Privacy was needed for my growth because I needed a sense of safety around what is being so vehemently protected, a deep vow to follow my authentic destiny. And, if I was so lucky, I too would have a chance to fully bloom my inner creator.
I find it necessary to write these words now because I understand after all of these years of initially discovering your work that what happened to me was an ignition, some spark which awakened me.
I am eternally grateful that you were so bold to allow life to flow through you, make the things you have, and teach what was most authentic to you. Something in your body, voice, and eyes spoke deeply to me and I knew instantaneously that I had found my path. I know that something deep in your soul recognized what was happening to me, because I am sure it happened in a similar way to you. You also knew you were not supposed to be around for my long journey ahead. I was so embarrassed to have wanted your approval so much and was deeply intimidated by you.
Time has shown me that I was only fearful of fear itself and what I needed to do was fully land in trusting myself. So now I can come to you with clean hands and fully own all of the fear that came up for me when I was physically present as your student.
Those times are caught in the web of memory and transcend all time and space to arrive here with me now. I love the student I was and the student I am now. I love that I was able to take notice of you and in turn, see myself reflected in you. I love that I am capable of feeling passionate and taking bold action with failing and successful outcomes and not knowing where the hell I will land even though I can be scared to my core.
I now see clearly that you sparked in me a great fire, a great passion to live my life to the fullest and find out my own particular destiny and grow in unlimited ways. Like a shooting star, you were my hope that all of my dreams could come true and I would realize ALL of me in deep love and reverence... eventually.
So as I sit here, I am at home in my heart and know that I have been building my life from the ground up, brick by brick. I am building a home that can stand in full integrity and withstand the challenges that rise up against my structure, bending and reshaping it for what is needed.
At home I can lie my head down softly and gently embrace my own face and deeply move into the awe of simply being alive and what the universe has given me. Mentor, I will love you forever for what you have given me and how you shined the way. My heart swells to know that you did your part and now I can do mine.
With deep bow and eternal love,
March 27, 2021
A Plea For People Of The World To Take Care Of Themselves
Written by Ali Fischer
March 22, 2020
There has never been a time on this planet where it has been so obvious that taking care of oneself's health is THE most radical political, social, and economical action one could take. Yes, there are those who were born immunocompromised and who naturally grow into life-threatening illness or those that simply are on the end of their trajectory life curve. However, the majority of those who find themselves sick, have consciously or unconsciously put themselves there.
The research and information on how to best take care of ourselves is very accessible at this point in our society. Thousands of articles, films, and books have been made on the subject and there are multitudes of ways one can choose to get the job done. From at least an educational perspective, there is no excuse as to why someone would not know how to live a healthy lifestyle.
My own father was born with a genetic condition that made him more likely to develop tumors. He died at his projected lifespan age of thirty-four years old. As a child, I watched how he took care of himself those few robust years and it was not what one might expect of how someone might approach their impaired condition. He smoked, he partied, he slept little, got little exercise, and there were no health parameters on his diet. He basically lived hard and fast till he was diagnosed with cancer and given six months to live.
Then I got to see how western medicine handled his predicament. They shot him up with all the chemo a person could take and “cut out” the cancer by amputating his leg in hopes of extending his life. To no avail, he died exactly six months from diagnosis.
There was never any mention by any doctor about how he could change how he was attending to himself in a physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual way. Zilch.
That experience was incredibly confusing, disheartening, and sad for me as a child. So much so, that I deeply promised myself that I would do everything I could do to make the right choices concerning my health and make a career of bringing awareness to people about just how important it is to be proactive about one’s health. My bottom line lesson from all of that was to become ‘response-able’ is the most responsible political and economical course of action for ourselves and our planetary community.
Here’s the deal, folks…. if you do not make healthy choices for yourself and your family, you will negatively impact the world. There is no other way to slice it. You are living from a victim mentality if you do not realize that YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR HEALTH. Here is a plea from my New York City apartment on PAUSE. Please do everything you can to boost your immune system.
This includes getting as close to eight hours of sleep as you can per night. Eat your fruits and vegetables, minimize (or take out completely) processed foods and sugar, and cook! Do stress reducing techniques such as exercise, meditation, and getting a massage more often. Attend to yourself emotionally by journaling and finding other creative outlets to express and get to know yourself. We are fundamentally creative beings and without some outlet to express ourselves, we will inevitably and unconsciously wield that creativity into potentially destructive habits. Take care of your home using mundane chores to slow down and find peace in ‘beingness’. These are just a few ideas on how to boost our immunity.
All of us are responsible for one another in this effort because we are basically one big interconnected immunity system. We understand this because our bodies are mostly made of microorganisms that are farmed in our gut system. Every day our body’s family of microorganisms meets the outside world through our skin and digestive system. This new virus is the new bad kid on the block. I am going to go ahead and assume (without waiting for a vaccine) it is here to stay and we need to upgrade our immune system by most likely eventually coming into contact with it. This is mother nature’s forced upgrade. Just think of her like your capitalistically enforced upgrade on your most coveted smartphone device.
If you love and value this life and the lives of our children, do not just sit on your coach, eat Doritos, and drink beer. Get up and learn new food recipes that are tasty and nourishing for your community of microorganisms! Play with your children and invent new games. Go for a run and come back and learn new yoga or exercise techniques on YouTube. Get curious about your perceived reality and what you do not know about the universe and meditate on this great mystery of being alive and breathing! It is miraculous to be alive and now more than ever we have the opportunity to look within and get to know ourselves better. Like that old Nike saying, “Just Do It!”. The earth and all living beings on this planet will thank you.